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Saturday, October 11, 2008

Not so perfect day

Today is one of those not so perfect days for me, but I still managed to do quite a bit.  I went out last night to stuff envelopes for our church benefit auction.  We also did wine tasting for it.  We tried champagne, chardonnay and red wine.  It was only suppose to go until 8pm, but we managed to drink until 11:15pm.  Not a good mom.  I left my husband at home and told him I would be back in an hour or so.  Never called and I didn't care!  I needed a night out where I didn't have to worry about kids or house or husband.  I was with  girls that I know pretty much nothing about, but when the wine starts to flow, you find that you know more about people than you think and you share so much in common.  It was refreshing to be out with women who tell the truth about EVERYTHING.   I come across friends everyday who tell me life is great, kids are great, everythings great.  But is it? is the real question.  No one can be perfect 100% of the time, but I think in some peoples minds they think they are.  Last night I had a lot of my feelings validated and it felt great.   We all struggle, and we need to be okay with being honest about it.  We all have feelings that we are not good enough, our house isn't good enough, we are not rich enough, our kids aren't popular, we aren't pretty, we aren't skinny....but do those things really matter?  When do we learn that it is okay to be who we are without worrying about what other people think.  If we all just told the truth and let people know that not everyday is a good day and that we do feel insecure sometimes, I think we all would sleep much sounder at night.  I woke up this morning feeling hung over, but renewed.  I got up and made breakfast, went to my nieces soccer game and now I plan to have dinner with my husband and daughters.  I am going to try to stick to my new plan....To not care what others think about my life and I hope I can help others do the same.  

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