BAAAACCCCKKK! And I am going to be better than EVER!

I have been away for a very long time now. I find it so hard some days to even have five minutes to myself. I know all you moms out there know how I am feeling. We do everything for everyone else and we let our passions and dreams fall to the wayside. Why do we play the martyr role? I am sick of it and I plan to reshape my life over the next few months. I need to regain control of everything around me and get my life back on track. My kids need to see the strong, confident and capable person I once was....they don't need to see a tired, mad, yelling mommy everyday. It is not their fault that I let myself get this way. I used to be the life of the party, now I suck the life out of a party....UGH! I saw my internist this week. He gave me a perscription for anti-anxiety drugs and sleeping pills...WHAT? But I used to be so in control....how did I get this far? I am determined not to take them, so I am going to get my butt back in shape, start eating better, yell less, and be as organized as I can be.....we need to strive to be the best we can be in this life. We have such a short time to do so. But we have to find a way to balance being the best and becoming obsessed with perfection. I have tried to be perfect and what it did it lead me to have someone tell me I need to go on meds! I am going to use this blog as my medication and to hold myself accountable. I hope you will too....join me. Let's get some balance in our lives!